Is It God?

Something that I struggle with is doubting whether God is actually working in my life or if I am just imagining things. When I pray, does God really answer my prayers or is it just a coincidence if something good comes of my prayers? I know what the right answer is, the answer that a faithful Christian would give, but there is still that nagging doubt within me. I want so badly to be able to completely trust God, to be able to see God as my Heavenly Father who is watching over me, but how much control does God really have? How much can he really make a difference in my life?

There have been several instances where it seems my prayer has been answered but I still wonder if God is really answering my prayer or if it is just a nice coincidence.

For example:

• Tonight, I had to go pick up my new key for my room since my roommate had the locks changed. I went to the housing division office, but it was closed for the night. It was freezing outside and it was very dark. I was on the verge of tears because I had to get my new key, but I didn't know where to go for it. I prayed desperately to God that He would help me find the place. After asking someone walking around for help I finally managed to find the office where my key was waiting. Was that God helping me or was it just my good fortune that I was able to find the office?
• A few months ago, I met someone who has become one of my closest and dearest friends. She completely understands me and I know that I can turn to her whenever I need someone to talk to. She has also been a wonderful Christian mentor for me and has shown me how to have a closer relationship with God. Is that God working in my life? Did he lead this wonderful friend into my life?

Is my imagination just on overdrive? How do you know that God is really there?